The Quiet Day

Today, being Ash Wednesday, has been designated a Quiet Day at St. Micheals College, Llandaf. A lot of people are wandering about, sitting together in silence, quietly reading. What do you think that I’m doing?

Nothing that remotely relates to religion. I’ve spent the morning installing Fedora 10 onto my new Laptop after Vista annoyed me for the last time. True, I’ve done it in silence appart from the noises from my house-mates, but that’s mostly because it took a while for me to get a music player working. The whole thing has made me feel a bit disingenuous. It got me to thinking about the amount of effort that I put in.

I do spend a lot of time thinking about religion, but mostly on my own, working it out as I go. There have been a few conversations around the place that have added to my theology, and the things that we get to do, like the Group Worship, and All-Age Worship also seem to fill in the blanks. However, I don’t feel that I spend anywhere near enough time in prayer. It’s that thing that I try to remember to slot in. I suppose it’s because I spend most of my time… just trying to be with Christ.

There is so much to wrestle with, the Fall, the Resurrection, What precisely happen with the Cross, What of St. Paul, What about the Prophets? I have read a lot about the Religion, but I don’t think that I read the Bible nearly enough. there’s so much in there, so much that I have to think about, it’s difficult to find the time to do it. That, in essence is what the quiet day is meant to be about. Time out of our busy schedules to read, and contemplate. However, I don’t feel I have time. I have essays to write, reflections to write, a spiritual journal to start, a group worship to plan. I know that most of the pressure is coming from what I put on myself, but this is something that I want to do . Something that I should be good at it. Now, if only I could find a way to get myself to work in this new way, I could be onto a winnner.

~BX